been so long since i updated my blog. but guess it's my poor time management. Been so much things on my mind. finally one burden is down. tat have been holding on to me. till i can't fly. on the outside things seems so prefect but on the inside only the inside can tell. it's just broken and rotten. no one brings it up. On de outside it's still prefect. seems i'm getting so so tired. wish i knew a medicine tat i could take to slp. and nvb wake up. waking up now. is just so so tiring. ever felt this way? smile on the outside but troubled till the inside. no one i can really turn to. to really help. all i get is just advise. if i really listen. guess i wont be in this "i created mess". guess i should just return to my shell. whoever needs helps just go christ. (no offence) i'm just really tired of all this seriously. seeing every second pass by. my skool work going down down down. totally kill mood. yet to complete skool stuff. and i'm still here. just a good rest away from everythn. guess this is really my first time i really left so so tired. i really wish i can just quit smoking. but i'm totally just gonna say smoke take me away to the clouds. tat is where i can rest. tat is where i can see.............